Your Harry Potter experience in a word.
the bravest man i ever knew.
Rowling has described him as “a gift of a character”.
She acknowledges that Snape is immensely brave, and when asked if she considers Snape a hero, replies: “Yes, I do; though a very flawed hero. An anti-hero, perhaps. He is not a particularly likeable man in many ways. He remains rather cruel, a bully, riddled with bitterness and insecurity—and yet he loved, and showed loyalty to that love and, ultimately, laid down his life because of it.”
There is no truer way to describe this man. He knew from the first moment, the very first moment that he saw Lily Evans that she would some sort of significance in his life. He served as her gateway to the magic world, and was overjoyed to do so — to be the only real magic in her life. Severus and Lily were put in separate houses once at Hogwarts. They found completely different sets of friends. No one understood their bond, but the pair still maintained a strong friendship.
He was in love with her.
One break of self-control, his accidental fault, changed everything. He called her a mudblood. And from that moment on, things were never the same. And along comes this guy James, and he’s cool and suave and charming and clever and everything Severus is not. And instead of Snape, James Potter is the one who gets Lily.
But Severus was already in love with her. And James, although an incredible arrogant block in Severus’s life, cannot falter that love.
When he heard of Lily’s death, I cannot possibly imagine how he felt. His love was gone and it was by the hand of his lord. She was his everything, although she wasn’t his, but now she was gone. But instead of simply brooding, he undertook the most testing task which proves his incredible bravery. He had to pretend it didn’t really phase him, and that he was still as loyal as ever. He had to obey the man who’d taken Lily from the world.
And he became the protector of Lily’s son. A constant reminder of Lily’s preference of another man — he had to see this living representation every day. Yet he did not give up, he did not move on, he did not choose to forget Lily. I don’t think he possibly could have even if he’d wanted to.
His entire life was being lived for her.
He devoted his existance to the woman he loved.
After all the time apart, his Patronus still matched hers.
After all the dreadful memories of James, he still watched over (however contemptuously) the boy who resembled him — the boy who symbolized Lily’s lack of love for Severus.
He lived for her, and he died for her. He was for her.
And on his deathbed, his last words were “Look at me.”
He died with his last view being the eyes of Lily Evans.
O.O this is pretty cool~